In order to claim one of the grand prizes of $1,000 (one will go to a winner, one will go to a reader), the eligible winners must be able to show their "before" and "after" pictures--this, we believe, is only fair.
So this weekend, being a little behind on everything as I seem to be, I had my husband take my "before" picture. First of all, if you believe that I'm going to post that baby up here for all the world to see before I can post my "after" picture up, too, then you're downright crazy.
I did, however, want to share my horror with you. Here, if I remember correctly, are some of the comments between me and my husband (mostly joking):
Me: "I don't really look like that, do I?''
Me: "How could you let me get to this point?"
Him: "Now, it looks funny because it's angled down. Let me bend down.".... "No, it still looks the same."
Him: "No, don't smile. You have to look all sad and pathetic."
After looking at both our pictures...
Me: "We need to put these on the refrigerator. And maybe the pantry."
Him: "And on the car window, too, so when we try to drive up to a fast food place they'll see a sign that says: 'Do not feed these people.'"" (After which we can't control our laughing.)
Seriously, though, my horrific discovery is this: When I look in the mirror, I see someone that's probably about 30 pounds lighter than I actually am. What kind of self-delusional craziness is this?? Is it because I "feel" like a skinny girl on the inside? I remember watching The Biggest Loser on TV a couple of years ago and seeing women that were around my same weight and thinking "Whoa, I look a whole lot better than they do. Thank goodness my weight's distributed more evenly." (Crazy again, right?) I look just as bad as they do!!!
At this point I'm wondering if I had printed off pictures of me at every stage as I gained weight and plastered them to my hands so that I saw them every time I went to overeat, if I wouldn't be much healthier today. This is not meant to be a self-bashing post; on the contrary, it seems I've been much too self-loving in the past, and today I'm realizing just what my reality looks like.
Now I can't wait to take my "after" picture and get to a new, better reality.
If you took a "before" picture, were you shocked at how you looked? Did you, like me, always see a skinnier person in the mirror than what you found on the camera?